Rihanna ft. Eminem - Love The Way You Lie - Part 2 [ LYRICS on Screen ]

How many times you still want to lie to me?

When only you can tell me the truth?

When only you can really forgot her?

When only i can really trust you ?

When only i can let you go....

Love the way you lie - Part 2

Specially dedicate for you !!!

"Just A Dream" by Nelly - Christina Grimmie & Sam Tsui

This is the song that everytime i felt sad, the Mix.FM will broadcast this song..
Especially when i think of him..

It might be a very normal song for most of the people,
But it really make me felt relief

Whenever i upset, this song appear..
It help me forgot about the unhappiness..

Love this song, so so much !!!

吵不散的才是爱

吵架，我想大多数的情侣都会碰到 过，彼此越是喜欢，而越容易吵架 明明知道是很小的一点事，却到最后是那么的生气，互相挂掉电话，接下来就是冷战 其实这个道理他一直都懂，他知道这 是在乎的表现，所以他对她的爱从来就没有动摇过 如果只有他那么想，那最后肯定有一方会承受不住的，因为他也不敢确定她是不是和他想的一样.

谈 恋爱的人，是不是能较好地交流，这可不一定。有时，相爱的人反倒不能交流。林黛玉最爱贾宝玉，爱得不要命，可是一见面就吵、就哭。越是相爱就越容易吵架。 薛宝钗为什么不跟贾宝玉吵呢？因为她不爱他。女孩子喜欢谁就跟谁吵，这一点对男士有极大的参考价值！ 一个人对另外一个人的感情如果很一般，就很客气，很 有礼貌，很尊重人家跟你不同的东西，有一种求同存异的倾向；而感情越好，对对方越关心，求同的倾向越强，达到一个峰值，也就是最高点，就接近全面求同。明 知对方对自己有感情，感情强烈，就越不讲理、苛刻，有点专制了。

所以今天我就详细的把 吵架分析一下，希望看了的人能够看懂，把话读透！相爱的男女朋友 对方的一举一动都细细的看在眼里，会胡思乱想很正常的，所以，当你有了男（女）朋友之 后 请对其他异性保持一定距离. 好好的去珍惜你身边那位会约束你，会吃你醋的人吧 不要觉得他（她）不讲道理，因为要讲理，那就做普通朋友好了，普通朋友不会约束你 并且永远都会尽量顺 着你，讲好听的给你。

相爱的情人任何的吵闹，嫉妒，猜忌，孩子气，都是合理正常的。因 为他（她）重视你，重视你们之间的一切 才会情感敏感而强烈.如果现在的你，正因为你的男（女）朋友无理取闹而生气，请拿起电话打给他（她）吧 冷战时期 其实对方都想要给对方打电话，但互相也是在等着对方的电话，就是因为彼此都这么想 所以既难受又生气，甚至越想越气，最后闹的是不可开交，所以在他遇到这 种情况的时候 他都是第一个说话的人，因为他知道她是那么的爱他，他也是那么的爱她，男人就应该让着自己心爱的女人 这个因为换个角度想一想你也是幸福中 的人啊！

好好的珍惜你身边为了一点小事而吃醋生气的人吧，因为你拥有着这样的深深爱 着你的人是——幸福！ 情人心里面容不下一粒沙子，哪怕是很小很小.真正爱你的人是容不下你和异性单独聊天或单独出去的 。 为什么要珍惜男（女）朋友？因为对方很爱你，会甘心情愿为你做很多事，很多普通朋友不会帮你做的事你的男（女）朋友都会为你去做。《 打出来的男、女人嘴服，疼出来的男、女人心服。》 总之吵架的根本原因就是真爱和在乎的混合体！！这可是一份最真最真的幸福噢~

女人不吵了、不闹了、不叫了，就是真的不爱了

女人说要离开，是伤心了，是你让他失望了.

女人明知道你们之间没有未来，却情愿留在你身边做个普通朋友，不是她太贱，只是她舍不得 .

女人故意在你面前提到别的男人，不是她花心，只是想要刺激一下你，让你多在乎她一点 .

女人不主动打电话、发信息给你，不是不想你，是她不够自信，你接到电话、短信时，是否也同样的想念她 .

如果女人不爱你，是不会对你发脾气的，不要报怨自己的女朋友脾气太怪，女人只对她爱的人发脾气.

女人不是不知道你还有别的女人，她选择独自伤心却不揭穿你，是害怕揭穿后给了你一个离开她的借口.

女人总是在你面前假装很开心，不是她没心没肺，成天傻乐，只是为了在你面前留下最美的样子.

男人 其实你不懂

記住..如果我選擇了你，我就一定會愛你、但是如果你先放棄，我不會回頭了

不喜欢就不要选择

喜欢了就要坚持

真正的幸福是

一点一点争取的

是一天一天积累的

不要去伤害喜欢你的人

也不要让你喜欢的人受伤害

成熟不是看你的年龄有多大

而是看你的肩膀能挑起多重的责任

喜欢一个人要

用心、诚心相待

真心交流

恒心相守

不要计较太多的得与失

感情没有绝对的公平

也没有绝对的对错

要学会用一颗宽容的心包容对方的缺点与失误

在一起是一种缘分

真的好珍贵..

不要轻易让喜欢你人哭泣伤心

好好珍惜在一起的每一分钟

美好的回忆应该留给快乐和欢笑

无论遇到什么事情

都不要轻易说你不喜欢我

不要轻易放弃我这段感情

下一站未必比我好

相信喜欢你的人

不要总是怀疑我的诚意

亲密之余给彼此留一点自己的空间

经常想念你

哪怕你的坏

设身处地的多为对方着想

永远也不想让你的面孔变得陌生

其实每个人一开始都不懂爱情

与喜欢的人一起经历一些事情

甚至一起经历一些痛苦

才能变得成熟

才会懂得珍惜

爱了就爱了

永远不要说后悔

只是一定要记住

让相爱的日子多一点欢乐

不要留下遗憾

喜欢一个人是一件很幸福

又很辛苦的事

我总是希望可以与我的喜欢的人能“执子之手、与子偕老”

所以我总是告诉自己：

选我所喜欢、喜欢我所选

既然我选择了

我也会用心的对待

我不想让我们彼此陌生

所以我用心去爱

创造自己的幸福…

不要怀疑

也不要不相信我

即然我选择了你

我一定可以做到

我等你…

记住我会爱你生生世世

Drunk Night, 12th Nov 2010

That night,
We were drunk.
That was the first time i saw he drunk, even ah long also said so.
He slept on the floor, he vomit out the beer.
He had drank 2 pins of the beer.
Ah long said that he never drink so much before, this was the first time

He mumbled with some words.
I know he was pain too, me too..

x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

"Even though we were together, the scar is already there! No matter what i explained to you, you will not trust me anymore. Even though... "

"Fine. Then breakup!" I said.

Silence filled in the air..

My words had stopped him from shouting at me.
This was the first time he scolded me. This was the first time that he shouted at me.
And, this was the first time that..

I said out the word, FACE TO FACE.

The words had stopped us from arguing.
We remained silent, for almost 10 minute.

I cant bear the feeling of pain,
I just want to get drunk. I ordered another bottle of Henekan,
2 bottles of Heneken,
I already half drunk..

I want to go back myself by taxi,
He hold me back, " I fetch you." He insisted.

My step was stumbled. . He didn't hold me.
I just want to get drunk, i take out the phone want to call friend for another drink,
He grabbed my phone.

I was collapsed. I want to get back the phone. I cried. He insisted not to return it to me.
I cried in the car. He still scolding me.

"If you want to break, then break la! I was very tired with this issue. I was very fed up! I'm ok with it ! " He said.

My heart was bleeding..
I don't want to go back. I just want the beer.
He brought me to ah long 's house, together with gie, ahsong, continue to drink..

That night was the first time i experienced the feeling of drunk, it was wonderful, i should say.
Because it really can make me forgot the thing, temporarily.
I was totally lost my conscious. I vomit out the whisky, sit in the toilet,
He was worried and ask me don't lock the toilet door.

I woke up, joined them the drink and continue another cup of Whisky.
Bottom's up. One shot finished.

2 bottles of Heneken, already make me half drunk.
Plus 2 cups of the Whisky (on the rock), worse.
I cant wake up. I slept on the floor.
He carried me to the room.
I was very scared. I cried and keep on saying that must bring me back..

"Ya i will. You just take rest. I will bring you back. Don't worry." He reassured.
He kissed my forehead before he left to the living room.

I slept.. Don't know how long..
Just felt that when i woke up, i went out the room to find him.

He was slept on the floor. He was drunk.
He was very very pain. He refused to breakup.

Me too..
The heart was very very pain the moment i said out the word..

Can we go through this stage together.... ?

等, 不等?

已经尽了我的能力, 来挽回这分感情..

又哭了, 泪又掉了.. 我真的哭足了一个月.. 真的够了..
以前那开开心心的我, 去了那儿?
以前那潇洒的我, 已经死了吗?
为何为了一个这样的男孩, 哭得死去活来..
而他, 却享受着暧昧的生活..
我的天...

哭够了, 放开了, 收机也丢在一边不管了.. 永远也不会再期待他的信息..
但是.. 信息却进来了..

"你很傻, 你在哭, 我也是.. 我做决定了,我选择你. 给我时间忘记她好不好? 失去你, 比失去她还要痛吧? 跟你在一起, 我确实不能好好爱你, 因为她.. 我也很辛苦.. 我真的对不起.. "

这封信息, 有点惊喜..
为何, 决定做得这么快? 不过.. 有点欣慰..

但是, 有害怕.. 要相信吗? 要再给机会吗?

"很开心收到你的信息..但是, 我不知道你是不是真的想清楚了..还是一时的冲动..
我很怕再给你机会, 更怕你给我希望..我怕再次受伤..
我知道现在还不是你的最终答案, 你根本不需要忘了她, 因为我也不想你失去这个朋友..我只要求, 可以顾虑到我的感受, 避免暧昧关系..

因为就像你所说的.. 暧昧的感觉是美好的, 但会让人受伤..而且, 不能长久..
现在我反而希望你带她到云顶, 陪陪她, 好好享受你们在一起的时间.. 会很甜蜜的..

今年的圣诞节, 若你真的已定下心, 决定了我, 再来找我吧 ..我们不要再联络了, 因为不想你对我反感. 我会给你时间, 但不会久..

若有人问起你, 有没有女朋友, 就说没有吧.. "

我还是, 给他机会了..
我这样的决定, 是对的吗? 不过, 我不会再100% 的把我的心给他了.. 因为我也害怕受伤..

"其实你不是花心, 只是多了一个选择, 让你不知所措. . 你很开心, 有女孩喜欢你, 结果直到现在, 你还不知道自己做错了什么.. 所以不经意的伤了我也还说自己没错.."

你的最后一封信息.. 说你知错了, 错在伤了我, 你会处理好..

突如其来的改变, 让我突然间不知所措..
等? 我才不那么傻..
不等? 很想他..

所以.. 一切顺其自然吧 .. 是你的, 始终会回来...

他, 与她 ..

" 我喜欢她, 知道不可能, 也不想放弃, 心不定; 我爱你, 以后很想和你在一起, 你是好女孩. 我花心, 不能跟你在一起也不会跟她在一起, 因为有悔于你. 我选择两个都不要.. 我真的不知道要什么..请不要再问我问题了, 我累了. .. "

这, 就是我和他的问题.
他总是以 " 我累了" 来盖过一切.. 然后逃避现实.. 然后, 问题还在, 解决不了, 我又提起, 他说我老是爱找麻烦..

我找麻烦? 拜托.. 我只要你好好的想一想, 你要的是什么.

你喜欢她, 不想放弃她; 那.. 我呢?

我在你心里, 是什么.. ? 是女朋友吗? 还是站暂时分开, hold 着我, 等你定下心, 玩累了, 再来找回我?

你与她的亲密信息, 是任何一个女友看了, 也会心酸..
明知道对方对你有意思, 为何就不回避一下. 但你没有, 你也一样亲密的回复了她..

你对我说, 你们只是朋友.. 我知道.
但朋友, 总会有界限吧? 为何你可以叫她 "sweetie", 他可以叫你 "小孩子". . 这... 是所谓 普通朋友的叫法吗?

是盲的都知道, 你们在暧昧..
是聋的都知道, 这样的叫法, 很不寻常..
是盲的都知道, 是这样的关系, 很伤他女友的心..

我也累了..

"世界上没有不可能的事,我知道你喜欢她,但没有不可能在一起的事..你可以改变她,但你选择不要;世界上也没有说你喜欢她,但你爱我.这..是什么意思?这样的选择真的很自私. 在你决定两个都不选时,我虽然笑着, 但我的心碎了..你因为她,放弃我们辛辛苦苦建的4年感情..我一直问你问题,是因为我要你清楚的知道你要的是什么..

我也很心痛问这样的问题, 但当我看到你已迷失了, 我更心痛...所以, 对不起, 现在你可能知道你要什么了, 只有她能带给你快乐..好好的珍惜她, 可以改变她, 就好了.. "

"你老是说你累, 我比你更累.. 我哭足了一个月, 心灵受了创伤, 伤了身体, 还是不放棄想去找你. 对着那冷冷的信息, 心在滩着血, 还得在你面前强装微笑.. 还得丢下面子, 像个没人爱的女孩希望你能回心转意.. 但仍得不到你的肯定..

你累了, 却很享受与她这样的关系.. 那种不须付出责任的关系..
这, 叫做累? 还是逃避? 那我的累, 是什么? 我不玩了.. 竟然你享受这样的生活, 你宁愿为了她, 也选择不挽回我们这段感情.. 我也不想再缠着你.. 好好的珍惜她吧..谢谢你的 4 年来对我的疼爱.. 不要再见了..我不想打扰你的生活.. "

你总是说我们分开的理由不是因为她, 是因为要冲事业.. 拜托, 这时什么理由.. 事业, 可以一起冲, 不要再找各种各样的理由来拒绝我, 我很清楚的知道你的理由, 是你不想面对它..

理由, 只有一个.是她, 已开始慢慢的占据了你的心, 让你时不时回想起她.
她也开始慢慢的取代了我的位置..

你不开心, 第一个会想到她, 因为跟她在一起, 很舒服, 完全没有压力;
因为跟她在一起, 你们有共同的话题;
因为喜欢她, 你会做一些东西, 给她惊喜..

(我知道, 你已偷偷订了 dolphine wall sticker 送给她.. 我一直以为, 那是给你, 贴在你的房间, 给我的惊喜. . 但我错了.. 你的房间, 还是一样..
看不见那可贴墙, 所以, 你应该是要给她的吧.. )

因为想跟她在一起, 你又觉得亏欠与我, 所以找了一大堆理由来拒绝我..

这里说爱我, 那里享受着暧昧..
爱, 不是这样的..

爱, 是当你知道另一半不开心, 会想尽办法来避免事情的发生..
爱, 是当你知道另一半不开心, 会老老实实的和另一个女孩说　＂对不起，我有女友了＂．．
爱，也要对对方有信任．．这点，我承认我做得不好．．
但是，if you want people to trust you, please do something to reassure her..

这是我的口头禅, 也是每一个人都赞成的..
其实, 分分合合了几次..这次, 我真的放手了.. 真的很痛..
那种, 明明深爱着对方, 因为一个不值得的原因, 来选择放开.. 很痛..

"我累了, 我很舍不得你, 你为这段感情付出了很多, 你不需要遗憾, 是我不会珍惜, 我自私. 我知道我一定会后悔, 为了自由却放弃可以守护终身的伴侣.. 我没脸见你, 你去找更好的吧 .. "

这.. 是你的决定..

你宁愿叫我去找更好的, 为何.. .不挽留我..

我的心真的完完全全的碎了...

Benefit Of Doubt

From his tone, voice, the "expression". She sense that, something was hide in behind.

He didn't tell the truth.

He tried to hide something.

She know that the purpose of his doing so is because of don't want to let her misunderstood. He went out with a girl for a movie. She is ok with it. This is his freedom, his personal space. As she sometimes did go out t with a guy as well. This is normal.

However, why he told her that he went with 2 other girls whereby in fact is only with a girl?

Why he didn't tell her that this Saturday he had a date with friend until she asked him?

Why he seem like stealthy when she told him that she might go to meet him at One U?

Why he behave like doing shameful thing?

This is not the first time they quarreled because of this issue.

He explained that because he don't want to cause any misunderstood in between them. In his opinion, this is not good for a guy who already attached went out with another girl alone.

In his opinion, choose to not to tell the truth is better than tell the truth as he know the girl will not happy.

She really wonder. Did he really understand her? Did he know that by not telling the truth, she will more angry and not happy? Did he know that, the girl did tell him not to tell a lie no matter who he go out with?

In guy's opinion, they think that the best way to avoid any misunderstood with his girl friend is choose not to tell the truth.

However, in girl's opinion, they think that if their boy friend didn't' tell the truth, this is call LIE, whereby the guy try to do something shameful and betray their girl friend.

Wondering.. where is the benefit of doubt in between them?

Ya it's correct that she should trust the guy. However, how can she trust him if he keep on telling the lie?

If there is no Benefit of Doubt in between the persons, regardless of whether they are friends, colleges, couple, employer-employee, it's really hard to maintain the relationship.

It's really hard for a employee to stay at that company in the long term.
It's really hard for them to maintain the friendship.

The trust, is fading.. Although, the love is there..

Life at 25's

"You are still very fresh,unpolluted by the politic,innocent"

This is the feedback I got from him and sister..

I admit that i still have a lot of things to learn..

2010 year is the year that I really learnt lot of thingsss. I learnt how to be positive, i learnt how to think mature, I know the life I want, i know ..i want to make my life different. I want to earn more money. Thus,i really give myself a try in sale line. I not sure whether I suitable in this line or not but I always believe that- never try never know.

This is a very new team. Everyone of us work very closely like a family. May be . . Because we are still new, no politic issue. . And this is the only job that I really enjoy the environment.. At least, at this moment.

Why add colleagues at facebook seem like a big deal for her? Ya I know she had a lots of working experience, expose to many different thing whereby in working life, there is no such thing called 'sincere friendship among colleagues '.

Ya I do not deny on it but why the same words come out from her and brother-in-law, i felt very uncomfortable with her words. I know have to be very smart in nowadays society. But..as brother-in-law said "Everyone need to go through it, you still really new. . Nvm, slowly you will know.. "

Ok. I got it. Just let me experience myself.

"Sis, I really wonder..how can you survive at here .. "

I also don't know why..everyday I listened to negative words. Everyday every time it seems i'm the one who always doing wrong thing and being blamed, but I just remain silent.. Whereby I think this is the best answer for her..

Can I have a peace and happy environment whereby after one day's work, no more nagging and blaming?

Sometime..i think that work further from house is the best for me. Daniel don't know the real reason behind I want to work further from kl. I just want to restart my life.

I told him I want to go sarawak.. He was a bit shock and tried to analyze for me the pro and con. Ya I did think before whatever he said. That's why I still stay back kl. When can I have my own family? But i'm not yet mature enough to have a family. This is really no answer from me..

As he said, i'm really really well-protected by family. Ya, I do..which sometime really bring some side effect for me..

Randomize

Quite a long time that i didn't update my blog. He always asked me " Today got update the blog? "

"NO .. " I answered. I know he don't want me to give up. But.. i'm just , nothing to write.

Nothing to write ? Or don't know what to write ? No inspiration ?

However, in reality, i got lotsss of things to say, yet i don't know how to express it...

When i clicked one of my friends FB - She traveling everywhere, the beautiful scene, the building, the winter, the spring, the autumn, the four seasons..

When i heard my friends around me enjoy their job, i envy...

When my friends were so happy that i finally resigned from my current job, i didn't feel the real happiness..

When mum asked me whether want to go back home during my two weeks holiday, I refused.

Sigh ...

Traveling around the world, still my dream but this dream seem hard to achieve.. Quite far to reach it since i already throw the money to my little myvi..

It's great that i already stepped out my 1st step from current company, but in the future, i got to stuck in the TERRIBLE traffic jam every morning and evening..

The petrol oil, the tolls, the monthly installment..

I failed to find the part time job. So, financial going to be my another problem. But i still have to go on my life..

That's why, my traveling dream is hard to achieved.

I refused to go back home, even though i so so miss my parents, my hometown..

The reason is, i hate to listen dad talked about the money. Every time when i go back, have to settle many bills, MONEY again. I don't want this type of feelings. That's why i choose to escape.

I won't choose to escape, if i have no financial problem.

There is one time that , i really wish .... .

I wish to go to a very far place, whereby i want to restart my life; I wish to live in somewhere that, I can really, really enjoy my life..