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Quite a long time that i didn't update my blog. He always asked me " Today got update the blog? "

"NO .. " I answered. I know he don't want me to give up. But.. i'm just , nothing to write.

Nothing to write ? Or don't know what to write ? No inspiration ?

However, in reality, i got lotsss of things to say, yet i don't know how to express it...

When i clicked one of my friends FB - She traveling everywhere, the beautiful scene, the building, the winter, the spring, the autumn, the four seasons..

When i heard my friends around me enjoy their job, i envy...

When my friends were so happy that i finally resigned from my current job, i didn't feel the real happiness..

When mum asked me whether want to go back home during my two weeks holiday, I refused.

Sigh ...

Traveling around the world, still my dream but this dream seem hard to achieve.. Quite far to reach it since i already throw the money to my little myvi..

It's great that i already stepped out my 1st step from current company, but in the future, i got to stuck in the TERRIBLE traffic jam every morning and evening..

The petrol oil, the tolls, the monthly installment..

I failed to find the part time job. So, financial going to be my another problem. But i still have to go on my life..

That's why, my traveling dream is hard to achieved.

I refused to go back home, even though i so so miss my parents, my hometown..

The reason is, i hate to listen dad talked about the money. Every time when i go back, have to settle many bills, MONEY again. I don't want this type of feelings. That's why i choose to escape.

I won't choose to escape, if i have no financial problem.

There is one time that , i really wish .... .

I wish to go to a very far place, whereby i want to restart my life; I wish to live in somewhere that, I can really, really enjoy my life..