Part of mY Life

I forgot when exactly the day, the girl had received a text from him " I have read your blog. Quite nice. "

Thanks...

He is the 1st person to read the blog. He always support the girl, guides her, teaches her, accompany her. During the university life, they have nothing to worry. Weekend dating, shopping, playing, studying. The girl was studying quietly, while the guy was playing his game. Even though they did their own thing separately, as long as they are together, they felt warm. Nothing can separate them up.

Until the girl started to work, she has changed. Her mind, her demand, her personality were changed. The girl looks for a better life. She hopes her partner can work hard, strive for his goal, care more on his career instead. She is looking for a guy that can really give him the things she want. A future life that she won't worry about the financial.

She is a tough girl. Since childhood, dad had trained her to be an independent girl " I won't give you the money unless you find the way to earn it. If you want to buy your stuff, use your money" .

During the primary school, mum only give RM 1 as the pocket money. She save half from it.

During the secondary school, even up to Form 6, mum give more on the pocket money, RM 3. She skip for the lunch, and save half from it.

She is good in study. She received many scholarships since primary school. Every time when she received the PTPTN, she still will save half from it. She is very good in saving, just because of the dream - she wants to use the money to travel the world. This is her dream. Everyone dream of it, of course.

" I want you to use the money go and see the world outside, rather than buying the car. I want you to perceive the things that you wont be able to see when you stick to the comfortable zone.. "

Ya, this is what she wants. But, after working for 1 year, she uses her saving to buy a car. Just because she needs the car to travel, to learn more things.

She wants to learn English, polish her English; she needs the car to go for the part time job to earn extra income; she wants to go for a better job which needs travel, that's why she buys the car.

She tried for many jobs, failed many times. The only reason was because of the poor English and communication skill. She was tired, she had lost her direction. She don't know what she want... She totally lost her confidence. She wants to earn more within the short time but this make her lost her way.

She almost to give up herself. Yet, he never give up her. He encourages her, motivates her, guides her, supports her.

" Take a rest 1st, don't keep on applying the jobs when you do not master well your English. You still will face the failure. "

Looking into his eyes, the girl felt that he has changed. He has became mature. He gives advise, opinion & motivation. Last time, he will not say so. He only will console her but now, he provides more than that.

"I didn't feel empty even my financial is empty. From other aspect, i am damn rich. I know my salary is low, but i know this is the best environment. I believe this company is the best stepping stone for me to go into MNE .. "

She still choose him, until now, because she knows he has lots of space to improve. When somebody asked her " What make you stick to him for almost 3 years ? "

I only smiled and replied " Although i cant really see my future, i can see his improvement which can lead us to a good future.. "

22nd Dec 09, 12.46am
~ She choose to stay..

My Idol

I was in a very bad mood. ..

Alone at home, accidentally make the alarm rang, being scolded by brother-in-law due to the careless, poppy peed in the home, worried about my future career...

All those things suddenly burst into my mind.

When the alarm rang, it was really SHOCKED! The THUNDER-like sound really make my limbs weak. But, the only thing that I know I have to do is run upstairs to inform my brother- in-law that, it was just a false alarm.

But.. I still being scolded. Ok, is my fault. I admit.

I let poppy alone at downstairs, he peed inside the house. My fault.

I forgot to off the alarm, alarm rang and it caused the non-stop calling from the operator to my brother-in-law, who is still enjoying his trip with my sister. My fault.

I always cant get into the good company, because of my poor speaking. My fault.

I thought i was tough enough to face all of these, until i received the message from my favorite blogger.

"Hey sorry for late reply. How's your blog? I wrote something mentioning you in my blog... "

Baby cheer, is my baby name in his heart. He named it for me, because he said it's suitable for me ~ CHEER = happy everyday.

I read the blog. Just the 1st paragraph, my tears drop.

"A young reader of my blog, Cheer, decided to start off blogging after following my little 'lEft.nothingbehind' for quite some times. She sent me a message telling me how nervous she was.

And I did not reply Cheer's message. I only smiled and wished her all the best, in my heart. "

I replied his text as he asked about my new career. I told him that i not sure whether the new company's is good or not, but what i know is I want to leave for current company. If not, i'm rotting. And, never try never know .

"Gud. Sorry i cant spend time with you while yin's gone. M tied up with drilling operations.. I have just canceled joining to races and a mountaineering just because i need to standby in office most of the time. Busy.. tired.

Pls make sure you take care and let me know if anything.. "

Wow...

I'm not alone. His text make me warm.

He is really great. He is my idol, since i was a kid, until now, and in the future.

Since i was small,he was my personal teacher. He was the one who taught me studying, writing, playing.

During my childhood, I remembered that every time after the lunch, he dragged me go for study. Using the short white chalk, writing on the blackboard, taught me the alphabet, the sentences, the calculation & the drawing.

He is very creative. He can use the different cartoon in the teaching guide book, named them in different characteristic, and make a long interesting story to us.

It is really, really impressed me! I still can remember the cover of the book - yellow cover. And it was a raining afternoon, he was surrounded by at least 5 kids, listened to his story...

He never end his story even when he grow up. Now, he has his own blog. He write his feelings & stories in the blog...

I'm really proud of you, bro, deep in my heart.

~ 16th dec 2009. 11.49pm .
It's great that to turn the feelings into the words. And, i feel better now.. :) ~

Serenity afternoon

With the Mix FM smooth and sentimental song, the blue sunny sky, and the ray of sunlight, it's quiet, calm and lonely afternoon. I was enjoying my nap. With my little poppy, sleep beside me. Both of us were enjoying the serene afternoon.

I told myself that i want to make my life great within this week, but of course, the rest of my life as well. I cooked the mix vegetable soup for my dinner. The taste will be good if it's tom yam flavor..

I read the newspaper.. I want to improve my general knowledge, my vocab, my English.

I played with poppy .. I like to see his smiling face. .

I read the inspirational book .. I want to have positive thinking. I want to get myself inspired.

I create the blog.. to convert my feelings, my mood into the words.

I enjoyed it...

~ 12th Dec 09. 1st day .. ~

Great life with poppy

I'm home alone for this week. Opss.. nop. There is a good partner with me - my little cute poppy.

I'm not alone. I can talk with poppy, play with him, eat together and sleep with him. It may sound funny. Why i spend most of my time with a little dog?

But, it's great life with him.

He is my alarm..

He wakes me up every morning. Although sometimes he has wrong timing in waken me up (3am midnight start to awake me), I just told him " poppy, too early.. wake me up at 7am. Ok ? "

Continue to sleep..

About 6.40am, he will lying in the bed edge, licking my hand. Everytime i refuse to wake up, he will jump onto my bed and lick my face. Wow, he is such a good alarmer !! Yet sometime he is annoying.


We love him so much. He knows what we talking about, but we don't know what he is going to tell us. Everytime he looks at us, his face looks confuse. But we even more confuse with his expression .

He is english ed. Honestly to say, i speak more to him compare with my colleague, and my friends.

I 'm wondering.. If one day, he has reached his life span.. ...

~ 12th Dec 2009, my 1st blog is born. A peace, quiet night ~